Debris

Caught in a world so Shattered
The pieces everywhere
I'm losing all that mattered
Finding a new way
To put some meaning to my life
Stop walking away, from everything
It's so broken
It's all that remains


Everyone's left this place
Already forgotten it
There's only me left
I'm buried deep, within the rubble
Breathing is a pain
It's the burden I've become
That's weighing me down


Is it obvious that I'm lost
Or am I hiding it too well
Am I alone in this hell
Has no one fallen where I fell?

-NH

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Compartmentalized

I guess that's picturesque enough
Those words frozen in time
I'm looking at them as they bleed, in the sun
trickling down the mountainsides
It's a crime
It's sublime

Blurred patterns take their place
They're stolid in their ways
Won't take another step
Clouds like dressing in their greys

Bold commitments and budding doubts
Been burning Hope, and I'm running out
Faulty ceilings, built in the past
I never thought that I'd be back so fast

Caught in the know
Blank faces everywhere
Did you really think this is doing fine?
When you dig too deep
You're lying
You're dying

-NH

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Be (The one)

Staring at a wall

With vacant eyes

An empty head is my disguise

I'm going on, but I can't see the point of it...

They leave me here

'Cause I'm ok

I'm starting to handle my own fears alone

And I'll be...

Be the one

To heal with time

Be the one

Blamed for your crimes

I'm starting to wonder if I had a say at all... at all

Hearing footsteps

Make me look back

I'll compliment you for your tact

Your lack of shame makes me wanna point it out

But you'll keep me here

'Cause you don't care

I love the way you justify yourself

When I'll be...

Be the one

To heal with time

Be the one

Blamed for your crimes

I'm starting to wonder if I had a say at all...

NH

Believe it or not, that's what got me to write this. :P
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How The Right Words Made it Last

Sometimes

It doesn't work, taking sides

Sometimes it just hurts to be alive

We're all waiting for the end

But meanwhile, I sit the fence...

Times a reckoning, I'll face it

Not mentioning the wrong I left back

The world's clock just ticks fast

Smothering the thoughts, that come too slow

To mind, To right

The wrong I didn't know...

A few seconds ago

Sometimes

It aint worth taking sides

Sometimes it just hurts to be alive

We're all waiting for the end

But meanwhile, I sit the fence...

It all boils to this, don't fake it

You're burdening yourself with this mess

Just let it out, just confess

Washing out the doubts that come to you

To blind, To hide

All that's wrong with you...

And you wished to be over this

You never wanted this mess

You always talk of regressing

But you digress, instead...

Sometimes

It aint worth taking sides

Sometimes it just hurts to be alive

We're all waiting for the end

But meanwhile, I sit the fence...

NH

The Fall

I made a choice

I was gonna regret, later on

Lent my wings, for these scars I keep

I’m still walking on

It’s over rated

This hope paraded

Scheme of yours, pulled me down

So pathetic

I, just can’t forget it

I’m only beating down the beast

Delaying its release

Put me out, I’m far too gone

I raise my voice

Is there anyone who can hear me speak?

Dark voids, I can’t perceive

I’m still walking on

It’s over rated

This hope paraded

Scheme of yours, Pulled me down

So deluded

Couldn’t be more excluded

I’m only breathing down the edge

Fallin’ on my head

The wind can’t put me back on track

Back on the path I’d pick

Would that the time I wasted

Choose to repeat

I’ll be off my feet

In the air, on the breeze

With the wings I’d given away

And I won’t stray, this time.

NH

Delirium

I’ve always housed this pain

What I’m chalking down is insane

Now it won’t blow down, like it should

It’s things we never listed

What we never insisted

I just can’t bring myself, to forget ‘em all

Those times that we resisted

Chances blown and wasted

They won’t walk out on me

I’m dying on the inside

These regrets tearing down my mind

I’ve found a love for things, I left behind

I can paint a picturesque view

Of feelings that I’ve been through

But I can’t comprehend, what I’ve never felt

Faults left uncorrected

Shortcomings undetected

Are the only things I carry from my past

All I represented

Never was for once resented

What have I become, I’d really love to know

Now if I went back into my past

I fear it’ll be a worthless task

I don’t wanna lose my present, pondering what I’ve been through

Re-visiting what I know

I’ve got to let go…

I’m dying on the inside

These regrets tearing down my mind

I’ve lost my love for things I left behind

I won’t paint no views

I’ll get confused

The important facts are just so few

I’ve lost my argument, to my judgement.

NH

My Apathy

Scale the rocks, if the past is worse

The broken road, the path that's cursed

And I'll be there, to find that you've followed me...

And I'm not the person I used to be

The one who'd fall off his seat

Laughing at the world and all it's been to me

Can't put to words, the reason

Thinking about it's treason

Don't know what to say

Have I got the cards to play?

Listening is easier

I've been doing it all day

Can't think or do, or say what's true

I'm locked up in my cage

This apathy's a prison for fools

And I guess I'm in too deep

To stray...

Break the walls, that keep you in

But as they crack, you'll find you've been

Taking down a part of you

The one place you could call your own

Is now gone...

Can't go on, but I'll better stay

It's all wrong, but I'll be ok

I don't shut you out, yet you feel that way

I'm doing my best, but i just can't...

 I just can't put to words, the reason

Thinking about it's treason

Don't know what to say

Have I got the cards to play?

Listening is easier

I've been doing it all day

Can't think or do, or say what's true

I'm locked up in my cage

This apathy's a prison for fools

And I guess I'm in too deep

To stray.

NH

Woe-ful

Keep me in the dark

Where it all seems bleak

I will not seek reprieve

Keep me far away

From atop these peaks

I will not seek release

I won't ask or tell

I'll stay where I fell

I'll slip out of your head

I'm as good as dead

Light a bright light

To the shadows, of your memory

And I'll be lost to you

I'll be gone for good

Fill me into bark

But it won't be me

It's just what you believe

Singe me with a spark

Just to hear me speak

But I can't breathe at all

I won't say I fell

I won't call this hell

I'll just lie here in red

I'm as good as dead

Light a bright light

To the shadow's of your memory

And I'll be lost to you

I'll be gone for good

It's not that I'm trying at all

I can't seem to get this over with

Doesn't seem hard to fall

Once you've hit rock bottom.

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NH