Delirium

I’ve always housed this pain

What I’m chalking down is insane

Now it won’t blow down, like it should

It’s things we never listed

What we never insisted

I just can’t bring myself, to forget ‘em all

Those times that we resisted

Chances blown and wasted

They won’t walk out on me

I’m dying on the inside

These regrets tearing down my mind

I’ve found a love for things, I left behind

I can paint a picturesque view

Of feelings that I’ve been through

But I can’t comprehend, what I’ve never felt

Faults left uncorrected

Shortcomings undetected

Are the only things I carry from my past

All I represented

Never was for once resented

What have I become, I’d really love to know

Now if I went back into my past

I fear it’ll be a worthless task

I don’t wanna lose my present, pondering what I’ve been through

Re-visiting what I know

I’ve got to let go…

I’m dying on the inside

These regrets tearing down my mind

I’ve lost my love for things I left behind

I won’t paint no views

I’ll get confused

The important facts are just so few

I’ve lost my argument, to my judgement.

NH