Delirium

I’ve always housed this pain

What I’m chalking down is insane

Now it won’t blow down, like it should

It’s things we never listed

What we never insisted

I just can’t bring myself, to forget ‘em all

Those times that we resisted

Chances blown and wasted

They won’t walk out on me

I’m dying on the inside

These regrets tearing down my mind

I’ve found a love for things, I left behind

I can paint a picturesque view

Of feelings that I’ve been through

But I can’t comprehend, what I’ve never felt

Faults left uncorrected

Shortcomings undetected

Are the only things I carry from my past

All I represented

Never was for once resented

What have I become, I’d really love to know

Now if I went back into my past

I fear it’ll be a worthless task

I don’t wanna lose my present, pondering what I’ve been through

Re-visiting what I know

I’ve got to let go…

I’m dying on the inside

These regrets tearing down my mind

I’ve lost my love for things I left behind

I won’t paint no views

I’ll get confused

The important facts are just so few

I’ve lost my argument, to my judgement.

NH

My Apathy

Scale the rocks, if the past is worse

The broken road, the path that's cursed

And I'll be there, to find that you've followed me...

And I'm not the person I used to be

The one who'd fall off his seat

Laughing at the world and all it's been to me

Can't put to words, the reason

Thinking about it's treason

Don't know what to say

Have I got the cards to play?

Listening is easier

I've been doing it all day

Can't think or do, or say what's true

I'm locked up in my cage

This apathy's a prison for fools

And I guess I'm in too deep

To stray...

Break the walls, that keep you in

But as they crack, you'll find you've been

Taking down a part of you

The one place you could call your own

Is now gone...

Can't go on, but I'll better stay

It's all wrong, but I'll be ok

I don't shut you out, yet you feel that way

I'm doing my best, but i just can't...

 I just can't put to words, the reason

Thinking about it's treason

Don't know what to say

Have I got the cards to play?

Listening is easier

I've been doing it all day

Can't think or do, or say what's true

I'm locked up in my cage

This apathy's a prison for fools

And I guess I'm in too deep

To stray.

NH

Woe-ful

Keep me in the dark

Where it all seems bleak

I will not seek reprieve

Keep me far away

From atop these peaks

I will not seek release

I won't ask or tell

I'll stay where I fell

I'll slip out of your head

I'm as good as dead

Light a bright light

To the shadows, of your memory

And I'll be lost to you

I'll be gone for good

Fill me into bark

But it won't be me

It's just what you believe

Singe me with a spark

Just to hear me speak

But I can't breathe at all

I won't say I fell

I won't call this hell

I'll just lie here in red

I'm as good as dead

Light a bright light

To the shadow's of your memory

And I'll be lost to you

I'll be gone for good

It's not that I'm trying at all

I can't seem to get this over with

Doesn't seem hard to fall

Once you've hit rock bottom.

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NH